Yeah, 2012 was probably not my favorite year. But it sure was an educational one.
Never once, before my May breast cancer diagnosis, did I think cancer would be something that would touch me personally. I figured my chances of getting hit by a bus were just as great as getting breast cancer, mostly because I didn't have a history of breast cancer in my family.
Well, I'm quite glad I had cancer, instead of getting hit by a bus. It's true that I will always have a certain nagging "Is the cancer going to come back" feeling in the back of my mind. But at the same time, facing down this disease gives me a greater appreciation of what I have.
I was reading Jon Gordon's e-letter that shared 20 Tips for a Positive New Year, and his #13 really hit me: "Believe that everything happens for a reason and expect good things to come out of challenging experiences."
I know it may seem maudlin, but I have decided that cancer was a wake-up call for me to appreciate all that is in my life, more. To appreciate the quiet. The solitude. The noise. The days when several people want something from me at the same time. The frustration when I'm late for a meeting but my daughter needs a little extra TLC. I realize now that it's all good.
So today, I say goodbye to 2012 and the person I was, and welcome 2013 as the person I hope I can remember to be.
A very, VERY thankful one.